Malgosia's final diary notes

Dear diary,
I´m in Brazil now in Tibor´s house. He sent me an e-mail a few days ago that I should take a flight to Brazil and bring him the trumpet with this chemical agent in it. He had given the trumpet to me in Scotland. That's some time ago.
He said he wanted to meet me again in Scotland. I was so surprised. I still loved him and was happy he wanted to see me and not my sister. The first times in Scotland were great. He said he loved me and I believed him. Now I know that it was just a lie to make me do all this for him.

During the last meeting in Scotland he gave me the trumpet with the hidden chemical agent in it. He said I should bring this to him to Brazil as soon as he had phoned me or sent me an e-mail. First I didn´t want that because I knew it was a crime. But Tibor said that he loved me and that this would prove my love to him. He also said that nothing would happen to me because nobody would think that a musician was having a chemical agent in her bag. So I agreed. I was waiting for his e-mail or phone call very long but now I guess it wasn't a very long time. It just seemed to be long because I wanted to see Tibor again.
Then I suddenly got his e-mail. Luckily Derek wasn't at home by that time. So I could pack my suitcase and go to the airport without having to answer any questions.
While I was sitting in the plane I still couldn't believe that I was going to see Tibor's house in a few hours. I couldn't wait to see him again. But on the airport I was very disappointed. Tibor wasn't there. He had just sent someone to pick me up. At his house he also wasn't as nice as in Scotland. I felt a distance between us. Next day he was nice again, said that he loved me and all these things. I should never have believed him.
Today I finally asked him to marry me but he was just laughing at me and said that he could never have just one woman. I was  so disappointed that I ran upstairs to my room where I am still now.

I just see that the bag with the trumpet and the chemical agent is still here. I could open it and poison myself. I know I can't go back to Derek or my family. And I can't stay here. What shall I do? Tibor's coming upstairs. I have to stop.    

  Malgo..